Sex

So, is there sex after 40?

I ask this one because I spent New Year's Eve with a couple of my neighbors. Both couples are right at the big 30 mark and at one point they were discussing where in the house that they like to have sex.

On the sofa.
On the floor.
In the tub.
In the Shower.

I almost laughed out loud several times.
I almost cried.

What I wouldn't give to come home, not be exhausted, and put the sofa to good use for something other than snoring.

So ladies, does it get better after 40?

Survivor

I survived the holidays.
I know that sounds negative but it isn't

Usually the Holidays are just this mad paced crush of insanity that really gets me down.
I want to kick and scream and cry most of the time.

This year I just took it in stride.
My father was gone which was sad, but so much better than the sad, sick, shell of a man that we spent the holidays with last year. The person we all knew and loved was slipping away and it was painful to watch.

I even carved the Christmas turkey at my mother's house without complaining.

Presents still depress me, but I at least tried to hide it this year.

I know I sound like an ass for whining about presents, but my issue is that people me "stuff" that is useless, even as a present. What gets me about it is that I am not hard to please or hard to shop for. Last year I went into this horrible post Christmas spiral because it felt like no one really knew me. Somehow, I avoided that this year.

I am hoping that this year will be better.
Much less drama and much more happiness.

I have noticed over the past few months that when I encounter situations that have trigged the horrible depression in the past, I have shrugged them off. Part of me wants to blame that on my sweet but short journey with lexapro. Part of me wants to take all the credit.

Either way I am much bettter off emotionally than last year.
I could easily slip back into something dark and nasty, but I am fighting the good fight so far.